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So, this is it. It's christmas eve 2007. Last year, I spent it in London. This year, Kalmar. I wonder where I'll be next year. That's the interesting aspect of life. Isn't it? You don't know for sure! Do you? I kinda like that. I enjoy not knowing. I hope I get to spend it with my friends or family.

To all my friends and loved ones... Merry X-mas! :)

I'm finding it hard to relax around here. I guess it's due to the fact I don't really have a place to stay. Well, I have my fathers place, and that's fine. But there is something rather disturbing, living in a room full of boxes. It's stuff everywhere. It's even worse than my room when I used to live at home. Believe me, I had stuff... EVERYWHERE.
My dad is great. And very patient. He's so kind to let me put all the stuff into that small room. But he got a car out of it. I hope he'll enjoy it. I realized I hardly ever speak of my dad. For the record, I couldn't ask anything more from him. He's just great. It's rather nice to be back in Sweden. He just turned 70.  And it's good to be around. I never knew how long I was going to stay in the UK. I wish I had some more time while I was there. But now, I'm happy to be back in Sweden. I'll always remember the good times in London. I don't have one single bad memory of the place. It's very nice to feel that way about a place. I'll always treasure it.

I'm looking forward going back to Stockholm, and even more, going back to London. Finally, some proper vacation. Mr Nolan bought us tickets for a FA Cup match! We're off to see Watford - Crystal Palace. Now, that's not very exciting you might think. Hey! It's the FA Cup! I don't care which teams are playing. I'm just there for the atmosphere.

Tomorrow I'm gonna see the Mc's. :) I'm really looking forward to it. They've been so kind to welcome me into their family. I can never thank them enough. That goes for the entire family. Well, I guess I have to try to get some sleep.

Just a final thought:

Christmas hasn't been the same, ever since my mom left us. I think of her almost every single day. I still have push myself to visit her grave. I try to tell myself, she knows I'm thinking of her. She knows I miss her. She knows.

My mom was great! She was stubborn, clever and always had a special glow. Man, she was a great mom. I just wish she knew how much she meant to me. I had a really hard time seeing her getting worse. Í wish I spent more time with her.

Just to put it into writing; Mom, I miss you a lot. There are so many things I never told you. I really wish I had.

All you have to know is; I love you, and I always will.

Merry x-mas mom...